Faith: Confessions of a Christian (100% REAL)

I don't think this will be a long post unless God's spirit moves on me, but I wanted to talk about Faith. It's such a powerful thing. I can almost cry as I write this because as powerful as it is some of us, including myself, don't have enough of it.

You know for the first time in my life, I am at a crossroads. A period of time when I just don't know what else to do. The answer to my problem is faith. Simple solution to a complex problem. I'm sorry but that is easier said than done sometimes. I don't mean to upset the "super christians" who go thru test and problems with ease and have God on auto dialer, but the idea of not being able to do anything except sit and wait on God is overwhelming sometimes. Will he ever deliver me? Is this ever going to end? I ask myself things like this and I am keeping it real. I sometimes say "God, is this gonna be one of those long drawn out lessons for me to learn." I know that their is a blessing on the other side, but my flesh wants to know when am I going to be comfortable again lol smh.

Those are questions I ask God. I know it's wrong. Sometimes I just get so anxious and frustrated that I wanna do things on my own. GOD, how can I help YOU get ME out of this lol! smh..Even though I know he doesn't need my help these are some of the things I have to confess that I say. But, I know that He knows I get scared sometimes.

Something else I wanna talk about and I don't want nobody to say nothing cuz I already know what you gonna say but don't act like you have never felt this way too, But when I get really weak on faith, I'm talking about LOW..I say Lord, Why is it that I serve you, and I pray, and me and you know each other, but all these other worldly people get the blessings FIRST! what?! lol..Now I know that God reigns on the just as well as the unjust and our set ups as Christians are all about PURPOSE so I pull myself together and say "Lord, I am sorry, I didn't mean to go there" But these are just some of the affects of trials and tribulations. With the right amount of pressure even Christians get weak spiritually.

Now God has heard me through all of this. He knows when you are in trouble and you need a spiritual boost; a reminder of some sort. Last night I sat up to nearly 5 am talking to a lady who has been through soo many tests and trials through life and she has experienced MIRACLES. I mean miracles. God had undeniably come to her rescue in ways that you wouldn't imagine. As she told me testimony after testimony, miracle after miracle I couldn't help but thank HIM for sending her to me to remind me that HE hadn't forgotten me! To remind me that HIS grace is sufficient...HE IS FAITHFUL. This woman was sent to me to remind me just how great God is. There is literally nothing too hard for Him.

It's natural to have trouble submitting your life to His will and HIS perfect plan. It's natural to have trouble trusting HIM..don't let anybody tell you it's not. But it is ESSENTIAL that we know the God we serve. It is soo important that we know that HE will never leave us and HIS plan is only to make us better and yes HIS plan includes success and prosperity and PEACE that surpasses all understanding. It is necessary that we know that trying to make things happen all on our own is an #epicfail. Don't do iT Ms. Celie..it aint worth it!! lol  seriously...

There are so many things that make us wanna rush though. We see our friends prospering and doing things on their own and it looks like their doing fine. Everybody is prospering, but you can't do like they do. We are in this world, but we are not OF this world. You and me are being set up and molded and prepared for sumn a little different. So don't get anxious or discouraged because it seems like you aren't going anywhere and you don't see anything happening right now. God ain't forgot about you. It's gonna be allllll riiiiiight! lol Trust.

God loves you and I love you! Be encouraged! Muah! xoxoxo